Frustrated

Maybe studying in TTSS wasn't a good choice at first if I had chosen to pursue my career in music.

YEAH. You just heard that. I said MUSIC.

Surprised? I was surprised too when I just made my decision. Since I'm kinda regret that I didn't go to science stream at first so now I won't let my chance slip away again.

So some of you would say: Yeah Fed it's a good choice since it's what you love... Yeah if it is something you love it would be easy blah blah...

I mean... seriously... it's not as easy as you thought.

I just came back from De Notes. Shaun asked me to play a drum solo on the drumset. And...I screwed up =(
My mind was completely blank. Blackout. How am I supposed to play to impress people. Well of course I did develop some grooves but it wasn't so impressive. There were lacking of tempo and accent and dynamics and groove etc and I didn't play so well :( It just wasn't the typical me. DISAPPOINTMENT

I really wanted to practice more after Shaun left but I didn't have enough time. I could hardly even touch my drumset in a week. Damn SPM! I don't have time! I need a few more extra hours each day to improve!

To tell the truth doing a drum solo(or any other instruments solo) isn't an easy job. We musicians know that but not for the rest of the people. They expect more. So they would think: Oh kay... So the drummer of the De Notes student band could only do this? This much? Woah you suck big time man. OKAY cut the shit off...

I swear to God that I'm gonna spend 90% of my time on my music after this year if I choose not to take any Pre-U. I seriously wouldn't wanna pursue my career on stuff which I don't like. I'm not impressed of myself succeeding in something which I don't have the passion towards.

I'm the kind of person who rather earn less and enjoy more in what I'm doing. I could have less salary next time being a drum teacher(example) but I would surely enjoy every minute of being one. I just feel proud and glad whenever I contribute on something I love. I would work my ass off for that groove or a correct long sax note.

So FYI I will be staying here for another year after SPM either A levels(for guarantee lah) or locking myself inside my jamming room for more torturing(my new house yay!). By 2011 you should see me no more in KK. I'll probably be at AIM(Australian Institute of Music).

So y'all better make a move too. Think of what you wanna study. What you're good at. Which path is the one you're passionate about. Which course you think you could manage the best. So if you wanna study MUSIC. Mark my word, THINK AGAIN. That'll help a lot but of course most of all...
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DON'T EVER REGRET!