Ssssupppp guys!?
Life's been soooooooo............... meaningless here in TTSS. School life is fun but when it comes to study you suffer.
I've spent most of my time on music within these few months seriously. Haven't been really studying since the last day of exam last term. Even though I'm sitting in the class quietly facing the teacher in front but my mind is still hanging somewhere in De Notes. Where Teddy was still standing in front of me teaching me how to play "Misty". Where Shaun taught me how to play the conga. Where Kevin showed me our coming-soon BIG BIG LARGE HUGE WIDE studio.
Yeah to be honest my mind's still lingering at the place where I had my best memory. I'm not getting good results from my tests recently. Account has been hard and shit. It jumbles up your mind then you go crazy about it and feeling hopeless and that's where you learn to cut yourself with a knife.
Have been watching youtube with my half-dead laptop here it'll have its 8th birthday soon. How old... And when I see Arthur Kam moving those lightning fast hands I just feel like cutting myself=.=
And he is 17 too =O!!!!!
Life's been soooooooo............... meaningless here in TTSS. School life is fun but when it comes to study you suffer.
I've spent most of my time on music within these few months seriously. Haven't been really studying since the last day of exam last term. Even though I'm sitting in the class quietly facing the teacher in front but my mind is still hanging somewhere in De Notes. Where Teddy was still standing in front of me teaching me how to play "Misty". Where Shaun taught me how to play the conga. Where Kevin showed me our coming-soon BIG BIG LARGE HUGE WIDE studio.
Yeah to be honest my mind's still lingering at the place where I had my best memory. I'm not getting good results from my tests recently. Account has been hard and shit. It jumbles up your mind then you go crazy about it and feeling hopeless and that's where you learn to cut yourself with a knife.
Have been watching youtube with my half-dead laptop here it'll have its 8th birthday soon. How old... And when I see Arthur Kam moving those lightning fast hands I just feel like cutting myself=.=
And he is 17 too =O!!!!!
Okay my confessions here I just fall in love with the sax so hard that I actually practice less on my drumset even though I have the time. Not to say that I've lost my passion towards the drums. It's just that I'm now currently in a Jazz-period so... yeah you know...
Of course I'm looking forward to my new house. I'm gonna move into it real soon. Like... soon lah... I'm gonna have my own jamming room and I promise to God/myself/parents that I will go full force from there =) On both instruments. AND THEORY =(
My sister came and gone back so quickly. Well she recommended me to go Singapore for music instead of Australia. Oh kay this is so confusing. I love AU so much that I wanna go there for further studies. But my sister has told me that Sing is better than AU in music so.... WTH
Feel so useless sometimes. I don't focus on my studies(although I get good results hehe=) I rather persue my career in music but I don't have a direction. I'm totally lost. Will I be able to earn money and live when I grow up being as a musician? Will I enjoy my life? Will I regret? Will I suffer from failures? Will I succeed? It's so risky...
AHHHH cut it off!!!
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